What's going on is a bunch of people losing their jobs for starters - me included! It sucks to lose your job when you were kicking ass in your role for 25+ years. My company didn't want to lay me off, they were put into that position due to the trickle-down effect of certain individuals gutting our federal agencies in the most unorganized way.
But I digress, I'm not here to blow my stack and go off the rails. I would very much like too, but I choose to use my energy in a more productive way. The job search is on and it's horrible out there. I have found positions that are perfect only for the postings to be - fake. I do research on the company and see how fraudulent they are. Just last week, I found a really good position, a perfect fit and then checked the address of this alleged car dealership noted on their website. When I looked up the address online it led me to a bank. No car dealership to be found.
I spend a few hours every other day looking at jobs. I need to work but am not feeling overly motivated to get a job even though I need one to pay the bills. I spend my time working on a creative project so that I don't totally lose my mind in all this chaos.
A retired neighbor lady has invited me to play Mexican Train Dominoes with her again. I had no idea such a thing existed. Heck, I never knew there were 8 variations on how to play Dominoes to begin with. Tomorrow, I play this game with her and near as I can tell the only difference between regular Dominoes is the amount you pick to start the game and the use of little train tokens. I'm sure there is some strange history on how it became Mexican Train Dominoes.
I suddenly want pizza and garlic knots.
Diversions aside, I have been doing my best to stay somewhat busy around the house. I finished Jay Morton's book Soldier: Respect Is Earned last month, and I am now about halfway through reading Clint Emerson's The Right Kind of Crazy: Navy SEAL, Covert Operative, and Boy Scout from Hell. I am looking forward to picking up Heston Russell's new book, not sure if it will be available in the U.S. in hardcopy form or if only as an e-book. Colin MacLachlan has a book coming out too, so I look forward to picking up a copy.
This is where I am right now folks. I am unemployed but working on a creative project and other projects to keep me active and my wits about me. As wonderful as staying in bed, downing a pint of ice cream and watching TV sounds, I get up every day and stay active. I have too.
If I give in too much to the darkness floating around, I honestly fear that I might not be resilient enough to fight back against it. Dealing with my dysthymia is one thing but letting it spiral completely out of control is something I cannot have happen. I realize some things are out of my control, but this is something I actively need to keep in check.
With that in mind, today's musical treat is Kool & The Gang's Get Down It. I thought something upbeat and funky would be good for all of us right now.
Rock on!
~Maynard